A brief summary of me
I figured what better way to start my blogging adventure than with an in depth look into who I really am as a person.
Who is Stefanie?
What a loaded question that is! We as humans are so many things, and it's often hard for me to define myself because well, I don't want to be defined or put into a box. So, let me try to break it down for ya.
I am single.
I am single because I am tired of broken promises, of trying to fit myself into the type of relationship I thought I was supposed to have. You know, the fairy tale, romantic comedy, high school sweetheart where it all works out type. That's not for everyone, and I learned quickly that wasn't going to be my story. Instead, I have focused on myself, on getting to know me and what makes me tick, what I need when it comes to fixing what's wrong, and how I need to be loved when the time comes.
I am spiritual.
I'm not by any means religious, but the idea of religion is very interesting to me. I instead focus on being a good human and believe in karma and the laws of attraction. Everything happens for a reason, and until you learn the lesson that is meant for you, you will continue to experience the same situation over and over again.
I love to travel.
I will take nearly any opportunity to travel. I once met 4 guys I didn't know in Fort Lauderdale, FL to be a part of a crew to move a yacht north from the keys. "Sailing" 200 miles offshore for 8 days, with complete strangers: totally worth it. Life is short, I want to experience as much of it and the world as I possibly can. Next on the list: scuba certified by age 30, and dive the Great Barrier Reef (before it's completely gone :( )
I was a Pharmacy Tech.
For almost 7 years, it's something I just sort of fell into. I ended up working in mental health and substance abuse for the last 4 of those years. I learned SO many things, and am forever grateful for this part of my life. My work in CMH led me to a lot of exploration of psychology and the way the brain and body work. Which leads me to my next point:
I love boudoir.
When I sat down and really started thinking about why I love this genre so much, I remembered my Sophomore year in high school. We had to write a research paper. I hated school, and I hated writing. Somehow I landed on the modeling industry and everything that's wrong with it. I wish I had a copy of my paper and my sources cited! Did you know, companies would choose super skinny models because it would be a more accurate representation of how the clothing looked when hanging on the hanger? HOW BACKWARDS IS THAT SHIT!? Like I said, I don't have my sources, and this was back in 2006, but that specifically stuck with me. So, unintentionally I've come full circle in my life to end the social expectations of what a woman "should" look like.
I am a hopeless romantic.
I love love stories. Yes, I have been single for 7 years, but I'm not bitter (well, 99.9% of the time I'm not) I didn't grow up with great role models of what lifelong love is, but I know it's out there. Maybe that's why I love being so involved and intimate with my couples, because I see their truth and it gives me hope, it reminds me that there is so much good in the world, despite the bad.
So, there's a little look at inside my head and history. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I've had rough periods in my life, made bad decisions (everyone has) and it's all lead me to become the woman I am today.
Welcome to my journey, I'm so glad you're here.